tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13015325474829491222024-03-14T14:17:37.497+05:30Wandering MindShaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.comBlogger57125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-55369490456321210162013-02-19T22:40:00.000+05:302013-02-19T22:40:02.239+05:30A letter to me from me...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Dear Me,<o:p></o:p></div>
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I just read what Dagny had wrote to herself and she is the
inspiration behind me writing this letter to me. Often times I have wondered
what it would be like to go back in time and change things for myself for the
better. The mature me says that life isn’t meant to be lived with regrets but
the impish me wants to ensure that I emerge scar- free when I live all the
years between age 15 to age 25. <o:p></o:p></div>
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What if we are living in a parallel universe? Over here my
age is 25 but in the other one I might just be 13. I would, probably, be
walking on a beach where I find this letter to myself in a bottle that has
floated ashore. Oh the romantic in me is thrilled at this idea! But the sad
truth is there is no sea where I stay so there isn’t any chance of me throwing
this letter away to reach you in the past. The only bet I can take is imagine
that I am 14 again and read this, hoping to derive some wisdom for the years to
come ahead.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I want you to know Shailee that you are a super star!
Modesty hasn’t really been one of your virtues but then you know and identify
your potential as well. You have got to learn how to make full use of your
potential! I know you have imbibed the mantra of competing only with yourself
at a very early age. This mantra has brought solace to you at times when you
need it the most. The world is changing rapidly where rat race has become a
fashion trend. Competition is present at all levels and they expect you to be a
part of it because you are, after all, the best they have! Thank God mom and dad
support you for who you are. Thank God that they have always been extremely
happy and content with your performance, academic or otherwise. I say this
because in the future there would be many instances where you would be compared
to other people. Some of them would be better off than you and the others
not-so-better off. It would be at times like these that your mantra would come
useful. You will learn to set a bench mark for yourself based on your past
performance and not on the performance of someone else. All in all, it will
give you an air of being unperturbed by others’ achievements or failures. I
think it is completely worth it!<o:p></o:p></div>
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Enough about you
being a super star! It is also my duty and moral responsibility to warn you.
You have been brought up in a very protected environment. You are one of the lucky few whose childhood
has been absolutely splendid and safe. You, still, don’t comprehend worldly
matters as people of your age should. Your trusting nature and your innocence
will go on to become your major strengths but only at the cost of losing many
people and after falling many times in life. I don’t say that being gullible is
a wrong thing. No! Don’t even think that way. But you have to be wary. There
are going to be people who are going to use you for their own selfish needs.
Think twice about who you want to allow to be a part of your innermost circle.
Of course, you won’t pay heed to my advice right now but after being hurt in
love/friendship a lot of times you will automatically start filtering people. I
assure you, you will only get better with time, kind of like the best wine that
you have ever tasted. Also may I add
that you will grow up to love wine?! (I do hope we are allowed to give hints
like these to ensure that we looked forward to growing up!) <o:p></o:p></div>
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Another thing I want to bring to your attention is your
complacency. Your lack of ambition bothers me at times. I know you adore your
father and you have learnt not to be greedy and over-ambitious from him. You have
seen the smile of contentment on his face when he comes back home from work.
But my sweet little Shailee, you have to understand that Dad is content because
he knows he has a set business. He has been in this profession for 25 years and
so he doesn’t have to be powered with ambition and aggression at this stage in
life because he has already become what he wanted to be. You, on the other
hand, lack passion and ambition. Please ensure that you set a goal and a vision
for your life. Your laziness in not doing so disturbs me and has given me
many-a- sleepless nights. You take “living
life as it comes” very seriously. I am not implying that is a wrong thing to do
but you will realize later that a little planning here and there would have
been most useful. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I think I have given us enough of advice to last us this
lifetime at the least. What I love about you is your desire to make people
happy. Right now you think that you can
make everyone happy (Why wouldn’t you? Everyone around you is perfectly happy
by you and because of you) but as you grow up you will realize that there are
people who enjoy being unhappy. These people are the negative ones you have to
be aware of. They are out there to suck
all the happiness out of you like the dementors do to Harry Potter (Don’t worry
you will know who Harry Potter and dementors are in approximately 2 years’ time).
Don’t let their negativity affect you deeply, though. Your positive attitude, you will
realize, will be like sunshine in a lot of people’s lives. That will give you
the strength to go on, which I am very sure you will, against all odds. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Always remember I love you for who you are today and
forever. You are an amazing person and I am sure you will stay so always. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Lots of love,<o:p></o:p></div>
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Me<o:p></o:p></div>
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P.S: In the
seriousness of the letter I forgot to warn you about some things that I want
you to pay attention to. Since no one
has stopped me from dropping a few hints about your future I am taking the
liberty to do so right now. I want you to follow these words extremely
carefully:<o:p></o:p></div>
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1) Stay away from cigarettes. You know smoking kills, don’t
you? You don’t want to make a habit out of that. Same goes with alcohol.<o:p></o:p></div>
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2) Make sure you eat right and stay healthy. 2 years from
now you are going to bloat up like a balloon during your 10<sup>th</sup>
standard exams. Avoid that</div>
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3) Also, for God’s sake don’t get that ugly bob cut on your
hair when you are 16. It looked good on Kajol, it won’t look cool on you.<o:p></o:p></div>
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4) Now is the right time to learn how to play the guitar. At
a later stage in life you would want to play it. But you won’t be very good
mainly because you didn’t start practicing at a young age. (You know oldies
take a lot of time to learn new things, right?)<o:p></o:p></div>
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Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-34404117972809199452012-01-23T15:41:00.003+05:302012-01-23T16:31:15.762+05:30A New Girl. A New City...She landed at the Hyderabad airport with the excitement that only an enthusiastic amateur traveler can experience when landing at a new place. It was just another random metro city, but she soon realized that the language was something which was going to separate her from everybody else, always. <div>Call her good luck, but her first month in Hyderabad was full of friends, fun and frolic. It was surreal. And she thought to herself, this is too good to be true. So many friends so easily?! All she did was bask in the glory of her friends and have a good time. </div><div><br /></div><div>Fast forward, one month. Now she sits silently in a corner of her office and writes this. Those momentary friends, made then, are now scattered all across the world. She doesn't have anyone she could speak to. Colleagues are 'artificial friends' i.e. people you know who smile at you and talk sweetly with you but bitch about you behind your back. </div><div>Outside friends are too busy with their lives and don't really care if you need someone or not. </div><div>All this comes as a blow for her. Mainly because, she is not used to being alone. She is used to being surrounded by friends and loved ones. But here something is definitely amiss. </div><div>She looks forward to waking up to a day when all this seems just like a bad dream...</div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-10723982636914639862011-08-21T07:43:00.003+05:302011-08-21T07:53:09.587+05:30The year of women empowerment or something like that...She is everywhere. She is your mother, perhaps, your neighbour. She is your teacher at school or she is the one sitting next to you on the bus. She may be your vegetable vendor or she may be your role model- but the truth is, she is everywhere!<div>I am talking about an oppressed woman. She will not tell you what she is going through, but her eyes will. She will never verbally abuse her husband, but she gets abused all the time. </div><div>I have come across so many oppressed women in my life that my faith in the institution of marriage is, perhaps, on its way to total collapse. </div><div>These are the women of today. They work outside, are bread earners for their family but their so-called better halves don't care for their feelings at all. Their spouses enjoy sitting on the couch doing nothing all day long and abusing their wives making sure that their male ego is satisfied. </div><div>These are the women of today who run from one place to another to make ends meet. Who undergo total trauma just to make sure their children have better lives. </div><div>I salute these women. But a better part of me wants them to break free of this nonsense that their life has been reduced to. A better part of me wants them to stand up and take a firm stand. There is a feeling of helplessness that sets in as I write this and realize that help needs to come from within for these women. And all we can hope and pray for is for them to realize just how much powerful they truly are! And unless they don't realize it themselves, there is no breaking away from the shackles of this male-dominated institution called marriage...</div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-91519380963752059182011-07-20T05:50:00.001+05:302011-07-20T05:51:28.204+05:30Rendezvous with self!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 16px; "><p style="padding-bottom: 0.25em; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0.75em; margin-left: 0px; line-height: 16px; ">My idea of happiness:<br />Making others happy. I know its not possible all the time, but I love it when I am the reason because of someone else's smile.<br /><br />Greatest fear:<br />Losing my parents. It is inevitable I know. But that will be the worst thing to happen to me.<br /><br />Which historical figure do I identify with:<br />Mahatma Gandhi. What a man! I don't care what others say or feel, but no one has the guts in their ass like this guy did!<br /><br />Which living person do I most admire:<br />Shahrukh Khan. Not for his acting skills. But for that awesome head on his shoulders! He is a genius<br /><br />Trait I most deplore in myself:<br />I am moody. Very moody. Disgustingly moody :)<br /><br />What is the trait you most deplore in others:<br />Lack of humility. I am allergic big time to egotists who cannot think about others.<br /><br />Biggest extravagance:<br />Maximum portion of my salary goes into gas (traveling), reading, movies and food :)<br /><br />Favorite journey:<br />Will be when I will be flying back from US to India forever :)<br />In short, going back to my motherland<br /><br />Favorite painter:<br />Vincent Van Gogh<br /><br />Most over rated virtue:<br />I agree with you. Patience<br /><br />Dislike most about my appearance:<br />My eyes<br /><br />Which living person I despise:<br />Politicians and con-men<br /><br />Words I use the most:<br />All hindi, gujarati and english gaalis. Sorry can't write them here :)<br /><br />Greatest regret:<br />Nothing<br /><br />When and where was I happiest:<br />14th october, 1991, Mumbai. When I was told that I have a baby sister now :)<br /><br />Present state of mind:<br />Frustrated. Want to shout at one of the so-called 'egotist' in my life<br /><br />How would you like to die:<br />In my sleep.<br /><br />Favorite motto:<br />When the going gets tough, the tough get going</p><p style="padding-bottom: 0.25em; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0.75em; margin-left: 0px; line-height: 16px; ">-Inspired by the blog write up on Shobhaa De's blog</p><p class="comment-timestamp" style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0.75em; margin-left: 0px; color: rgb(119, 119, 119); font-size: 11px; padding-bottom: 0.25em; line-height: 15px; "><br /></p></span>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-79996510111469807822011-06-07T08:25:00.002+05:302011-06-07T08:41:43.618+05:30My sister...When she was born my heart burst with a feeling completely unknown- jealousy. Yes, that is exactly what I felt. Now, I would have to share my father and my mother's undivided attention that was meant only for me. And here she was, an intruder in my perfectly perfect world. <div>For a long time after that, I would tease her that she is an adopted child. And that I am the only actual daughter of Mr. and Mrs. Shukla. She took it all in a lighter stride. </div><div>I never realized it then, but I do now- that what an amazing person my sister actually is. She is mature in ways that flabbergast me. She is impish in ways that make me smile and think about my childhood. </div><div>While growing up, I hated her. She would read my diaries, would tell mom things that weren't meant to be told, would talk to people that I hate, would be daddy's pet- and so on and so forth. </div><div>Little did I realize that this was just sheer love that was growing within my soul; just for her. </div><div>I still remember how she would eagerly wait for me to come from school, and as soon as she would see me she would drag her tiny little bottom across the floor just so that she could be held by her didi.</div><div>When she first started walking, I remember being on my knees at the other end of the room waiting with my arms wide open and she would come running into my arms and give me the world's best hug!</div><div>When we were both young and stupid, we would make a house underneath the dining table all fully furnished with pillows and teddy bears. All these and so many other wonderful moments that have made sisterhood so special. </div><div>Today the roles have reversed. I see her as someone who is wise beyond her years. I see her as someone I would seek advice from. I see her as someone who is closer to me than my closest friend. I see her as someone just like I would want my daughter to be... </div><div>I could write a book on what I feel for her. Or perhaps words would seem superfluous here. But one thing is true, that she has surpassed all of my expectations today and she is someone I am fiercely proud of. </div><div>I read what she writes and I realize that its my soul speaking back to me. I guess that is why there is so much of hype about blood relations. She is a part of me speaking to back to me, telling me exactly what I would feel. So what if she is a million miles away? </div><div>She is a still a part of the same branch that I am. She is still my own flesh and blood. After reading this she is going to just tell me that I am an overtly emotional fool, but I know that in the night when she is lying alone in our bedroom she will perhaps think about her crazy-emotional-drama queen- didi and I hope that she knows then that she will always be loved and cherished in a way that no other sister would ever have felt. </div><div>I promise you my sister, that I will always be there for you. No matter what. Every step that you take or every endeavor that you want to undertake, there always will be one hand ready to hold you in case you fall...</div><div><br /></div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-80476250085769307212011-04-09T01:11:00.002+05:302011-04-09T01:18:11.801+05:30Egotists.. and we are surrounded by them!Yes! The word is 'egotist'. This is the word I fell in love with, when I first read the much coveted 'Atlas Shrugged' by Ayn Rand. I don't agree with everything that that book has to say but I fell in love with this word.<div>And it is true! We are surrounded by them. Primarily men. People who haven't achieved much in life except working at a laundromat come up to me and explain why I am overconfident about the decisions that I make in my life. And I feel like telling them that it is, precisely, these risks that I will take that will make a better person out of me in the future. That was Egotist No.1</div><div><br /></div><div>Now we have Egotist No. 2 who thinks that every mortal soul walking on this planet is an ant, that is to be crushed under his feet. Well except for him of course. Because he is the omnipotent, all knowing one!</div><div>Well let me tell you Mr. No.2 that you are as retarded as Sridevi was in the movie Sadma. And that having X number of graduate degrees and holding Y number of prominent positions on your resume doesn't necessarily make you a demi God! Knowledge comes with a lot of responsibility and should be accompanied by a lot of humility. If you are not humble enough to respect another person's being, any amount of grey matter in your head would stay just that GREY MATTER and nothing more!</div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-74150394544206600942011-02-07T00:26:00.002+05:302011-02-07T00:28:52.089+05:30If Only..- I had never met him or fallen in love<div>- I had never lost out on all those friends</div><div>- I had stopped and smelled those roses more often</div><div>- I had never let myself down in front of me so many times</div><div>- I had studied harder..</div><div>- I had been more focused and fixated</div><div>- I had a PASSION</div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-45104156800951517812010-12-03T22:20:00.002+05:302010-12-03T22:24:51.457+05:30And so it is...So this is what closure feels like. This is what it feels like not to have any hope or any faith remaining to fall back on. So this is what it feels like to know that some things in life just will not be the same anymore. <div>I am not saying I am happy about this feeling because trust me I am not. I feel all the pain imaginable on this planet. I feel like a vital organ has been ripped out of my body and there is nothing that remains there but emptiness. I feel like my soul has been slashed by a sword and that it is going to take a lot of endurance from my side to stitch it back together. </div><div>Now I know what the tin-man in Wizard of Oz actually felt- living without a heart is terrible. I could perhaps survive without a brain or even survive living like a coward. But how do I just live without a heart?</div><div>So this is what it feels like not to be in love anymore.. </div><div>This is what vacuum really is...</div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-40264481120043829652010-11-27T04:07:00.002+05:302010-11-27T04:12:43.331+05:30Moksha...So you want to be immortal? So you want to attain salvation? I don't know why but this thought just crossed my mind today at work. Now I am not a preacher or a saint to give my views on this topic which many would find rhetoric. <div>I, once, had a discussion with a professor during my under graduate classes in India. Apparently, he couldn't wait to attain 'salvation' and he thought that this was his last life on this planet. Now, as hilarious as this sounded to me, I just responded by one question- Isn't the temptation to attain salvation a temptation in itself? Doesn't this temptation contradict the very premise on which the whole concept of salvation is based? So why all this fuss about attaining nirvana?</div><div>On a personal note, wouldn't it just be super cool to be born as someone else in some other birth (if something like that does happen)! </div><div>I could be born as anything that I imagined! I could be a butterfly or a princess or a wall street investment banker! </div><div>This is just so tempting.. I don't think I want to break out from this cycle of birth and death. I am in no hurry and in no mood to leave beloved planet earth :)</div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-45385796957062019842010-10-05T06:39:00.001+05:302010-10-05T06:40:48.196+05:30Destiny..This is straight out of my favorite author Paulo Coelho's blog. <div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); line-height: 19px; "><p style="padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; margin-top: 13px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 13px; margin-left: 0px; line-height: 1.5em; "><strong style="padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" >Deciding on the Destinies of Others</span></strong><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br />Malba Tahan tells the story of a man who met an angel in the desert and gave him water.<br />“I am the angel of death and I came to get you,” said the angel. “But as you were kind, I will lend you the Book of Destiny for five minutes; you may change what you want.”</span></p><p style="padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; margin-top: 13px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 13px; margin-left: 0px; line-height: 1.5em; "><span class="Apple-style-span" >The angel gave the man the book. As he was leafing through its pages, the man began reading about the lives of his neighbors. And he got discontented,<br />“These people don’t deserve such nice things,” he said. With the pen in hand, he began worsening the lives of each one.</span></p><p style="padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; margin-top: 13px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 13px; margin-left: 0px; line-height: 1.5em; "><span class="Apple-style-span" >Finally, he reached the page of his destiny. He saw his tragic end, but as he prepared to change it, the book disappeared. Five minutes had already passed.<br />And right there, the angel took the man’s soul.</span></p></span></div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-36234453295115977122010-10-02T04:57:00.003+05:302010-10-02T05:02:55.223+05:30Billy WonkaThis post is titled to a friend/ stranger/ someone-just-like- a-younger-sister to me. Her parents helped me out when I first set foot in this strange country. You can say she was my first friend here. She is amazingly bubbly. Her smile is infectious and her energy is constantly flowing. I have not spoken to her for a million years now but I do think of her. <div>Until recently I didn't know her so well. But then I stumbled across her blog. And all the ramblings of a teenage girl. She is depressed perhaps, perhaps she is happy. I don't know what. But it makes me sad somehow. </div><div>It makes me sad that I cannot be with her and help her out. Or I cannot be with her and watch her smile that infectious smile. </div><div>And this is the case with every single friend of mine. I feel so protective. I may not always want to listen to your troubles. I may not always want to laugh with you. Honestly speaking, I might not always want to cry with you too. But I will and would want to always always protect you. Being protective is the most important thing for me. The only sad thing is, I wish I was this protective for myself!</div><div><br /></div><div>P.S: By the way the post is titled Billy Wonka because that's her nick name. :)</div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-28445231119912631922010-04-30T13:05:00.002+05:302010-04-30T13:13:47.309+05:30Whereabouts of God..Well for starters I am glad I changed the template of my blog from jet black to pristine white. Depicts peace-within my soul and around me. <div>Many a times, mostly in times of distress, I have found myself looking towards God for help. But then the dual personality in me tends to question- why do I believe in something that I don't see? Why do I want to trust the fact that there is a higher being controlling all of us?</div><div><br /></div><div>And the questions move forward making me think that does God really have to be a higher being than all of us? What if He is just down here somewhere sitting right next to us? Holding our hand when we are distressed... consoling us when we are on the verge of tears..rejoicing with our soul when we rejoice! What if He were a human being too just like you and me?</div><div><br /></div><div>God has the power to MOVE people. He has the power to INSPIRE us. He has the power to make us BELIEVE in ourselves. And more often than not I have had people do all these tasks for me; the ones that are supposed to be done by the Almighty above. A.R Rahman's music moves me, Clint Eastwood's movies inspire me, my Mom makes me believe in myself when no one else even bothers to listen. Then are these people equivalent to God?</div><div>Yes for me they are. And I say that without any doubts whatsoever. When I do a good deed, I feel like God myself. When I see someone move me in ways no one else has done, I see God in them. So then why do I have to look above at the sky to invoke the blessings of the Almighty? I am just happy seeing Gods all around me...</div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-78611192563392030082010-04-21T13:17:00.003+05:302010-04-21T13:28:08.007+05:30I am brown.. and I am proud of that.When you work at a convenience store, you encounter people from all walks of life. And people, in need of alcohol, will do anything for free stuff. Yes they could be racists too..<div>So here I was doing regular work. It was just another day at work. Nothing out of the blue. And in walks this guy who buys a whole lot of beer and some cigarettes. Turns out he has 3 credit cards and there is not even a single dime on any of those cards. He insists that I keep trying to swipe the cards again, as if my swiping them again will regenerate money in his account!</div><div>Nevertheless he asks me to hold his stuff for him and he goes to the bank next door to extract money from the ATM. Comes in 5 minutes later and says if I could give the goods to him on credit. </div><div><br /></div><div>I, of course, politely refuse saying that it is not our policy to give goods on credit. And his exact words were, " What?! Is this India or something? I have taken goods on credit from here before." And I realized all of a sudden that my blood was boiling. Ears perked up at the mention of India from his mouth. And I managed to keep my calm and asked him, "Well what does India have to do with this?" And he has the f%$@#$% guts to say that, " Well if it was India you wouldn't give out goods on credit. After all it is a matter of trust. This is America. There is no question of that sort." </div><div>And the next words out of my mouth while pointing towards the door were, " Thank you. Have a good night." </div><div>I am amazed because of 2 things:</div><div>Firstly, I managed to keep my calm even in the midst of all the blood boiling going on in my body. </div><div>And secondly, I was amazed that people in 21st century still believe in borders and racism! We talk about being a global citizen, and being technologically so advanced that there is a world without borders. How can one do that when such things still happen in this day and age!</div><div>I wish I could have just told that so-called white guy that had it been an Indian I would have trusted him/her fully and given her the goods. But just because it was a dumb American, I held back because I don't really have any trust or interest in you!</div><div>May he rest in pieces!</div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-20261049830747474162010-04-10T22:53:00.002+05:302010-04-10T23:00:30.633+05:30A post with no name...I have been sitting and staring at the screen for over 15 minutes now. Not knowing what to write or where to start from. The fingers twitch and yearn because nothing has been written or said for such a long period of time. <div>The mind wanders, as always, looking and delving into a plethora of topics that might interest me as a writer and you as a reader. But the mind ditches me. It doesn't churn up anything new. And so I start doubting myself as somebody who can write. Is my imagination so limited? Is this all that I am capable of?</div><div><br /></div><div>But then again there emerges a hope saying, "Your mind is miraculous. It has the ability to dream and think of ideas that no one has ever thought of." And I cling onto this faith and start typing. The words flow out just like they flow out here and Voila! I have almost half of a post full of gibberish. </div><div>Sometimes just letting things be is what it is.. no observations, no opinions, no- what is good and not-so-good. Just enjoying the subtle joy of writing. That is all that this is!</div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-3761524912126709162010-03-23T09:59:00.002+05:302010-03-23T10:02:51.641+05:30Footprints in the snow...Footprints in the snow<div>remind me of a time gone by,</div><div>a time that is never going </div><div>to be mine again.</div><div><br /></div><div>Footprints in the snow</div><div>remind me of the hardships faced,</div><div>and the endurance that emerged</div><div>to reach the destination.</div><div><br /></div><div>Footprints in the snow</div><div>remind me of the strength and,</div><div>a strong will to move ahead</div><div>despite all odds.</div><div><br /></div><div>Footprints in the snow</div><div>soon fade away leaving </div><div>behind only the impressions</div><div>of a step once taken...</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Dedicated to Fua and the UMDNJ- the hospital where this was written..</div><div><div><br /></div></div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-17329700994095272882010-02-20T21:21:00.002+05:302010-02-20T21:35:56.277+05:30My Name is...I am a Hindu. You are a Muslim, a Sikh, a Christian, a Jew- A HUMAN BEING! Somebody very aptly said that 'there is enough religion in us to hate but not enough to make us love each other.'<div>Secularism, the concept of God, the concept of His love for mankind and the fact that he made us all the same doesn't seem to put any rational thoughts in the minds of religious fanatics. </div><div>Why didn't God give 3 eyes to the Muslims instead of 2? Why didn't God make one extra leg on every Christian's body instead of 2? Why doesn't a Hindu have 2 pairs of hands?</div><div>The reason is simple yet thought provoking- God has no religion. Just like we play a variety of roles in our lives be that of a son, father, mother, daughter, sister or a friend; God too plays multiple roles for the sake of His followers. </div><div>Sometimes God becomes Shiv, sometimes Allah or sometimes Jesus. He does that out of love for His children and His children fight out of hatred for this very reason. How very ironic!</div><div>Millions have died because of this hatred and millions more have suffered because of the fanaticism of a few. Hatred breeds hatred and love breeds love. It is true that no individual can think alike. There are good people and not-so-good people. It doesn't matter if all the heads look differently, but it would just help so much if at least there back was turned against the same thing..</div><div>Hope is but the dream of those that stay awake!</div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-27733099338139374782010-01-11T16:25:00.002+05:302010-01-11T16:31:47.195+05:30Stuff..Ironic- We bargain with a poor vendor selling caps on the road, but we pay exorbitant prices for a simple t-shirt in a Nike showroom..<div><br /></div><div>Beautiful- The sight of a baby cow suckling milk from its mother, the sight of a tired body resting peacefully under the shade of a huge tree..</div><div><br /></div><div>Amazing- A 150 year old banyan tree still standing strong in spite of all the years, experience and the torture that it might have gone through..</div><div><br /></div><div>Love- When your eyes meet his for a flicker of a second and no words are required..</div><div><br /></div><div>Dumb- To not tell the person you love that you love him/her..</div><div><br /></div><div>Pain- To not be able to establish contact with your best friend when you need her the most..</div><div><br /></div><div>Path-breaking- The genius who must have thought of the idea of having a scare-crow in his field to drive birds away without actually being present all the time.. </div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-17300519371864612462010-01-08T11:36:00.002+05:302010-01-08T11:51:01.706+05:30Babies...Ever experienced a touch as pure as the touch of God? Ever experienced the feeling of complete love when a small head rests safe and secure on your shoulder? Ever experienced the feeling of complete humanity when a small finger tugs at your hand... All this and so much more can be felt, realized and experienced all in one go- when you are with a baby. <div>The miracle called life is at its infant stage. They are probably the purest people on the planet. Purer than anyone of us and closest to God. </div><div>Not only infants, even small children. They knowingly and unknowingly teach us so many things. For example, my 4 year old sweetheart (my neighbour's son) taught me the Gujarati alphabet and he even taught me how to shoot an arrow out of a bow! </div><div>No ego hassles, no malice, no mind boggling mind games and an absolutely amazing window of eyes to look at this world. That is a child for you! Sometimes I just wish I could go back to being a baby, or at least be with a baby forever and ever! That is perhaps the only way I could forget about all the difficulties I faced and return back to innocence... </div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-31879324225543372582009-11-20T08:20:00.003+05:302009-11-26T07:25:35.690+05:30Expressions..So many people I have met, known and thought about, have one thing in common. In fact, every individual on this planet shares a common need- the need to be loved. I am yet to come across an individual who doesn't want to be loved or cherished. <div><br /></div><div>When such circumstances exist, it is wonderful to find a human being who has the capacity to express his/her love for the loved ones around him/her. </div><div>So often (read almost all the time), I have come across people who do not believe in expressing their affection for the people they like or love. </div><div>I am an individual who believes in expressing herself. I feel that if I don't let my loved ones and the precious ones know how I feel about them- then who will? </div><div>Just try and express your love for your wife, father, husband, son or mother and just capture their happiness in your hearts forever. </div><div>Love is a beautiful thing, that is not meant to be hidden in your heart but it is something that needs expression and only then is the journey of life worthwhile...</div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-89228890964702313952009-10-21T12:49:00.002+05:302009-10-21T12:56:36.774+05:30Complexity and all the crap..I am an MBA student and the reality struck me just a couple days ago when I was writing my mid-term exam for a subject that is stupidly titled Managing Change. Now every MBA knows that professors talk a lot of crap about models and flow charts and lots of theories. Academic scholars like Galbraith, Nadler, Peter Drucker or even Sigmund 'fucking' Freud came up with the weirdest of all theories and models. Like we don't have anything better to do with our lives!<div>My question is, when faced with an actual business problem or a crisis, who in the whole wide world has any time to consult these flow charts and theories. </div><div>Ever since we were born, haven't we been taught to tackle crisis by our own judgment? The word for that is 'EXPERIENCE'. That is certainly the best teacher. </div><div>And I realized it 3 semesters down in MBA! </div><div><br /></div><div>Sorry Mr. Drucker and Mr. Freud but seems like your complex analysis of organizations and people will still remain secondary data because nothing can take the place of simple mistakes made and great lessons learned..!</div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-63592204878578110962009-09-12T13:30:00.003+05:302009-09-12T13:40:42.680+05:30I wish I was mentally challenged..The title of this post may be enough for my friends and people who know me to start laughing. Because they have this notion that I am already mentally challenged! Well, they do not know that beneath this insanity lies the sanity of a pair of eyes that, probably, has seen it all and been through it all..<div>But that would be digressing from the point. The point I want to make here was taught to me by this customer at the store who is mentally challenged. </div><div>This guy is amazing. By amazing I actually mean, pure at heart with no malice in his soul. How many sane people practice this these days? </div><div>Sometimes I feel that the so-called- insane people are the luckiest amongst us all. Life for them is not a struggle but a happy journey. They have the most beautiful frame of reference to look at the world. </div><div>Such innocence, such purity is unseen. </div><div>And that is why I wish I was mentally challenged... wish I could break free from the shackles of all the mind games that my mind plays with me. Wish I could break free of the entire chain of thought process that boggles my mind. Wish I could live life without having to worry about the future. Wish I could be just me...</div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-66192494234115676932009-08-14T12:47:00.005+05:302009-08-14T23:40:35.855+05:30Independence or as we call it.."<i>250 years of struggle for independence but what do we have to show for except for a country divided..."</i><div><i><br /></i></div><div>These were the closing lines of one of the most beautiful movies that I saw in recent times-1947 Earth. Directed by the ace director Deepa Mehta, this movie revolves around a young girl Lenny who sees the world through her eyes during the days of partition. </div><div><br /></div><div>62 years of Indian independence and Pakistani independence were celebrated in the succession of 2 days i.e. 14th and 15th of August. As Jawaharlal Nehru proclaimed independence in his famous speech on 14th of August; a new India was born. </div><div>But in the hustle and celebration of the rebirth of a nation, millions of its children slept forever. Such was the sad state of 2 nations during the time of partition. Over one million people, be it Hindus or Muslims, were massacred in the name of religion. </div><div>The human exchange between the 2 nations stands out to be the biggest that has taken place in the history of mankind. </div><div>And after 62 years, the question reigning in my mind is- why? What bent the Britishers to demand for partition when 2 countries were going to flourish together in prosperity. Were the Britishers so afraid of India's and Pakistan's joint strength that they just decided to divide the nations in 2? Were India and Pakistan so much of a threat for the pale skinned bastards?</div><div><br /></div><div>Why did nobody care about the one million that died in the partition.. or the thousands that were massacred at Jallianwala Baugh? </div><div>And then they celebrate 62 years of Independence...</div><div><br /></div>Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-41937974094734320402009-07-31T10:47:00.002+05:302009-07-31T10:52:12.694+05:30Malgudi Days..A few days ago my friend mentioned this T.V series that I once used to watch as a kid. No points of guessing the title of this series.. Malgudi Days.<br />This novel was written by one of the most loved Indian writers; often confused with cartoonist K.R Narayan; Mr. R.K Narayan.<br />To be honest I have never read the book. I would love to and someday I will. But I love this T.V. series.<br />It is about a small town called Malgudi shown as it would have been during the British Raj. The sheer simplicity of the series, the beauty of the stories so wonderfully told and the amazing performances by the actors are some of the many things that have awed me once again to this series.<br />The inner child has awakened again and certainly what an awakening it has been! At the age of 23, I just wish I could be 6 again. I just wish I could live in the olden times in a village called Malgudi...Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-80198891840631388682009-07-28T14:01:00.002+05:302009-07-28T14:08:01.309+05:30When you have nothing to share..How do you express yourself when you have nothing left to say,<br />How do you see another person when there is nothing left to see,<br />How do you realize you have moved on when you don't want to move on.<br />How do you fight loneliness, when lonely is all you want to be..<br /><br />More or less this is what I feel right now. It has been ages since I wrote something. I missed writing. But unfortunately bigger and more pressing matters consumed my time. And this time the title of this entry and the small verse is true- I actually have nothing to share.<br />All along, I realized, I have given my views on a lot of things. Be it education, gender bias or my observations in general. And when I was going through my entries again today, I suddenly realized that who am I to share or say anything about anyone or anybody.<br />It may sound confusing right now. But I feel it is just so true. All throughout our life we have been taught to be strong and speak our minds. When all that we should have been taught was that there is no one opinion that is right or wrong.<br />What I may see through my eyes may not necessarily be the right thing through your eyes. Why share and why care? Why curse and why complain? Nothing is going to change the way you view something- so why crib about it?<br />Life is too short to curse about. Just accept the frustration along the way and sail on!!Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1301532547482949122.post-15312834054161863052009-06-17T13:35:00.002+05:302009-06-17T13:42:18.861+05:30Metamorphosis...The only permanent thing on this planet is change. Be it a blossoming flower bud or a cocoon turning into a beautiful butterfly, everything changes and everything grows.<br />Most of the times, we crib and cry about change. As human beings, we have a set routine and we hate when that schedule is disturbed. Even if we miss a single bus, we feel frustrated because our entire time table for the day is blown apart.<br />But ever tried looking at change through a different pair of eyes? Metamorphosis is the beautiful journey an individual undertakes to become a better person. Metamorphosis is that medicine which brings us closer to being our self. The person who we ultimately are supposed to be.<br />Had it not been for that change, the cocoon would have stayed a cocoon and never turned into a beautiful butterfly. Had it not been for that change, we would not have had flowers. We would just have stagnant flower buds. Had it not been for changes in our life, we would not have grown to be better people.<br />I do not fully understand why am I writing about change today. I guess I just needed a change from my old writing habits and hence this article on change! All we need to remember is to embrace change as and when it comes. That is all that is needed to add spice and variety to life...Shaileehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11088835776707733783noreply@blogger.com1