Friday, December 3, 2010

And so it is...

So this is what closure feels like. This is what it feels like not to have any hope or any faith remaining to fall back on. So this is what it feels like to know that some things in life just will not be the same anymore.
I am not saying I am happy about this feeling because trust me I am not. I feel all the pain imaginable on this planet. I feel like a vital organ has been ripped out of my body and there is nothing that remains there but emptiness. I feel like my soul has been slashed by a sword and that it is going to take a lot of endurance from my side to stitch it back together.
Now I know what the tin-man in Wizard of Oz actually felt- living without a heart is terrible. I could perhaps survive without a brain or even survive living like a coward. But how do I just live without a heart?
So this is what it feels like not to be in love anymore..
This is what vacuum really is...