Monday, February 9, 2009

Dissipating into someone else..

They say that a new born baby is the purest thing on the planet. But as and when it grows, the layers of worldliness start enveloping its heart and mind and slowly but steadily it loses its innocence.
How I wish, I could stay as innocent as I was when I was born. Losing out on innocence, not being able to trust people and being wary at every step-these are the few symptoms of the disease we all know as 'growing old'.
I am turning into someone else, someone who is growing old. I wish I could go back into being carefree and trustful. I want to trust people, but I am wary. I want to be able to become the Shailee I was before. I have started thinking about myself more and I am not even able to decide whether this good or bad. This metamorphosis affects me, and I wish I could change..

Somethings I want to do...

First of all, thank you Nehal-because I stole the first line from his yahoo messenger status.This gave me the inspiration to write this thing..

Sleeping with open eyes,
I see dreams for myself
Waiting with an open heart
I wait for the right time to play my part.

Contributing with an open hand,
That is all that I want to do
Winning with a humble end
Is all that makes me take a firm stand

Wanting the best to bring out within my soul
Will happen someday I am sure
Striving to create a face
Will finally help me come out of this daze…

Friday, February 6, 2009

People that I observe...

I know it has been ages since I put up something. My friends complain, my parents rant on and on about not keeping in touch, and loved ones patiently wait for me to get back home.. but the thing that has kept me really busy is the place where I work part-time- a convenience store.
Now working here is real fun, because you encounter people from all walks of life. But there are certain customers who leave their foot prints behind in your mind. Now all of these are not necessarily good, but nevertheless I mention them here, because they forced me to think about them even after the transaction is done with. Here is a list of them all:

- The Grumpy Guy
The Grumpiest Guy on planet Earth award goes to this particular customer who comes to the store everyday. He has a horrible body language and a constant frown on his head. I have not seen him smile even one single time. He throws money on the counter as if he despises it. His frown gets all the more deeper if there are people ahead of him in the queue. I just wonder, what must have taken place in his life that he turned out like this? What atrocities has he gone through that force him to be in a bad mood all the time..

-My Crush
Yes, I am a girl! And I do realize that I have crushes all the time. There is this guy who comes and buys beer everyday. Now he looks exactly like Thom Yorke of Radiohead fame, and I can't help but find him oh-so-cute. Turns out that he is a student at my university too pursuing Criminal Justice.. impressive huh???!!!

- My sweetheart
She is probably a 70 year old woman, who still has to work at this age to cover up her expenses during these unstable economic times. I asked her, "Why do you still work? You should be home, taking rest". And she says, "Atleast I have a job. I am not as unfortunate as those others who lost theirs.." She taught me this lesson today- Never complain. Because what might be less for you may be more than enough for others.

These are a few people who influenced me. There are many more others who touch me in some way or other everyday... and I am thankful to God that I get a chance to meet such beautiful souls in abundance...